ice reflexions

Winter Break Nao...

2009-12-20T00:55:00.003-05:00

+Sigh+...Yes..+Sigh+....and for further emphasis +Sigh+....PS...+Sigh+ Yeah I'm bored already. BUT, It's a good bored....I should start my homework...I made a list of stuff I have to do over the break...but it's classified (like anybody cares). So somebody from my school carried the Olympic torch for..300m(?) or something...I think it is being made into more of a big deal than it really is...although I can't imagine myself doing that..

Guy before me: "Here's the flame"
Me: "Thanks"
+Starts running+
+Runs+
+Runs+
+Runs+
+Gets Tired+
+Jogs+
+Jogs+
+Too Tired+
+Walks
+Stops+
+Travelled a total of 30 m+

Oops, guess the flame's not getting to Vancouver. Sorry world, no winter olypmics 2010. An alternative situation is me just dropping the torch and setting myself on fire or something..+Sigh+..Yeah..I should change myself over the break for the better...Okay I can't refer to the next two weeks as a "break" anymore, it doesn't work. Yeah that's it for now, I can't think of anything while I'm busy being depressed.

Still :(

2009-12-09T00:32:00.002-05:00

I keep failing quizzes and tests in everything....D:

Last Friday:
- math, I didn't get the easy questions and my methods were all wrong T_T

Monday:

- chem, I left 2/6 pages blankkkk auuuuugh D:

Tuesday:

- physics, again with the stupid simple harmonic motion Dx I never saw an example problem, that's why I couldn't do it...

I should get over the "omg no example => i can't do it" issue I have....otherwise I'm going to choke and die on the finals @_@;...+Sigh+ No motivation...fail -> depressed -> no motivation -> no studying -> fail -> depressed-er -> less-er motivation -> less-er studying -> more-er fail...:[

Perhaps I shall use winter break to conquer procrastination.....: [ Yesh...just lots of whining about marks...+goes to hide+

Wooo I'm back...hopefully regularly

2009-12-01T00:50:00.005-05:00

: ( has been me in general lately....I didn't think Gr.12 would fail so much, or maybe that's just me...yeah I don't know -_-. I just realized that I write my blogs in a sort of...what's it called..stream of consciousness...can't believe I had to look that up (orz)...It's not as if we didn't spend 2 months talking about it in Gr.11 english..>>; +sigh+

Time for the usual blahblahemuing about school. I've decided that instead of signing onto MSN when I get home everyday and whining to five different people about the same thing, I'll just write about it on here....even though nobody sane will read this for fear of dying from...boredom or something. What happened today...oh yeah..burned myself in chem because a group member was an idiot. Really...can you not hold an Erlenmeyer flask in an ice bath? I wouldn't have had to reach over the hotplate to hold it myself if you could do something so simple. There's also no reason to throw ice on the hotplate. Yes, it evaporates. Congratulations +mutters+ dumbass +/mutters+ =_=;;;; You also don't play around with the experiment as we're doing it and "your mom" and "that's what she said" jokes get really irritating when they're about chemistry. ....Oh yeah, why should I know what quizzes there are if you don't ==; There's really nothing wrong with taking responsibility for your own work. Go find another person to use as your secretary. +sigh+...next topic.

I dropped ICS today..well +looks at time+ yesterday technically. I'm really disappointed by this because ever since Gr.9 I've wanted to take HL ICS just because I like it so much. But the teacher we got this year....my god I hate him with a passion. The sheer amount of idiosyncrasies this guy has will want to make you run him over with a steamroller, no I am not exaggerating. He literally made me hate the subject. I dropped it mostly because I wasn't doing the work nor did I really have any intention to do the work. It's too bad I guess, but I still have my Gr.11 ICS mark. I was going to rant for pages, but there's really no point. Although if he gets sent to a different school second semester, I will rage so hard...like...seriously..ragerageragerage OUTRAGE ASFJL:ASKFJL:ASKJFLASK:JF <- that kind of rage.

On the topic of marks, I signed onto the OUAC website today and accidentally stumbled across my transcript. Wow that was depressing...+sigh+ the updated IB marks for French and Economics were on there. I think I got 6s in both, which is pretty disappointing. I took French since Gr.3 so I thought there was a small chance of getting a 7. : ( I should have studied harder Dx. How should I know what "un expression vulgaire" is :[.

I checked the statistics for exams last year. Apparently 80 out of the almost 100 000 candidates for the diploma got 45/45 points in 2009....that's..impressive. The one guy I asked from my school said he got a 39....So far, I've pretty much slacked off. I don't know why but I'm really tired this year, I think it's because of a lack of (exercise + focus + motivation + regular sleep cycle)...I should try to get some exercise into my life...or at least eat healthier. I ate wayyy too much chocolate today...shh...Focus and motivation...I kind of know what I want to do with my life, but it's not really focused. The reality that it's Gr.12 hasn't set in yet......the shock has though. Midterms..F..M..L..@_@;;;;; I went to the IB coordinator to talk to him about dropping ICS and somehow we got to the topic of grades. He said "Your marks are lousy, don't bother with university. Save your money." In those words...@_@; Got to get it together. Might as well establish some goals now.

French - 7 <- Failed, got 6.

Economics - 7 <- Failed, got a 6.

English - 5 or higher <- read texts and get thorough with literary terms
Math - 6 or higher <- just gotta practice and review regularly and pray for a miracle...

Physics - 7 <- NO EXCUSES, just gotta practice and review regularly
Chem - 6 or higher <- just gotta practice and review regularly

TOK + EE - 3

I see a pattern in my goals..o_o...but my mom's been telling me that for years -_-.....but maybe it's time I listened to her...I suppose at minimum that will leave me with...6 + 6 + 6 + 6 + 7 + 6 + 3 = ...um..39..o_o...that's decent I suppose....but I'll have to get my fat butt into overdrive right now....as in right after I finish this post...I should stay away from one of the biggest time wasters ever invented: Youtube. How can I spend so long watching stuff I shouldn't watch...I really should stop watching random animes, covers and other wastes of time.

It's late so I guess I won't talk about other stuff...in detail. Yay for point form:

+Ahem+

Music:

- Britney's getting old

- Lady Gaga's good, I don't know why people don't like her

- I need motivational music...desperately, I should stop deriving my motivation from music..It's too unreliable

- wish Evanescence and WT would hurry up with their new albums :[

People:

- People change in strange ways

- I hate fake people so much, I can't be friends with them...yet I pretend to be so...therefore I hate myself..?...that's off...

- I have less patience for others now....bleh...

It's officially been December for an hour or so. Winter's almost here...yayyy...I like winter. In honour of winter, I shall do better...I must..or I will fail at life so epically minstrels will compose songs about it....Winter, descend and shatter my bad habits.

Teh Usualz

2009-09-29T20:43:00.004-04:00

So my mom wants my computer, so I might get a laptop....yayyy...but I want something decent because I'll be using it for the next 4+ years at least. B.H. has been showing me several, and I've seen a few that I like, but they're like...400 dollars too expensive...(L>400 dollars)..+Sigh+...Wonder what it's like to be able to buy everything without giving up anything.

The people on ShoddyBattle make me rawr...It's actually kind of sad to see these people taking Pokemon so seriously -_-; Somebody actually tried to convince me to forfeit because they had bad luck....just because I was able to use your own ability against you does not make me a nub. =_=; At least I can make a team and win somewhat without resorting to OU pokemon all the time. >_> Maybe I should make a better UU team...maybe a UU sandstorm team, or make my hail team much better. : x I prefer hail, but Abomasnow is oh-so-weak...D:

It's only the third/fourth week of school and I'm already behind. I should stop getting on the computer at 4:30 and saying I'll stop at 5. I never do...why do I keep doing this...@_@. Big reason I want a laptop, I'll be able to (hopefully) fold the laptop up and put it away so I won't get distracted by it so much >_>; Not to mention I'll have more space on my desk ><.

Nothing more happened today...Failed physics, but what else is new...eh..nothing...nooooothingg...I keep waking up and Love Story starts playing in my head...That's got to be one of the most irritating things to listen to first thing in the morning...Worst part is, it's never the whole song, it's always fragments so the same part keeps repeating itself over and over and over.

+Brushing teeth+ "Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone"
+Getting dressed+ "Marry me Juliet, you never have to be alone"
+Walking to school+ "And my daddy said stay away from Juliet"

...IT'S NOT EVEN IN ORDER =__________________=;;;;;;;; Then it's a key passage analysis in English and I'm trying to think while having THAT song playing in my head, the people upstairs dragging their desks around and listening to Ms.Irritating on the announcements. +Rwar+....Yeah I failed that..>_> +bleh+

Bleh

2009-09-29T00:01:00.004-04:00

Went to the university fair on Friday (skipped chemistry : x...oh who cares, they didn't do anything >_>) We were supposed to see J.L, but we missed him...maybe another time. I didn't really learn much though >_<. Spent most of the time following friends around while they collected all the freebies...so azn and so brown x]. We went back twice to the Nipissing booth because they were giving away mirrors + pens..woo..pens..They give a lot of financial support though. A 95%+ average gets you free tuition in your first year. But my choices are back to Waterloo and Toronto....Waterloo...co-op, away from home, new experience. Toronto...cheaper because of the lack of living costs, close to home, probably like high school except with more work..>_>;...I don't know where to go anymore Dx...Waterloo takes like..half of the people in IB from my school every year and I doubt I can stand being around them any longer >_>.

I got sick...bad milk..went to math, felt nauseous, went back home. Yayy...it really bugs me, why can't people just stay home if they're sick instead of coming to school and spreading germs +Should get a bubble+. I wanted to write more, but honestly I'm so tired from being sick that I can't remember anything : [ ....maybe later...

+Ctrl+X Wrist+

2009-09-24T21:43:00.004-04:00

I know I shouldn't complain so much about people, school and stuff in general. It does get annoying after a while. But sometimes I have to complain and I can't help it. I do put up with stuff, but some things just irk me to no end.

Today was the Team Leader meeting at school. Every single person in IB was there. Why? Because each person is leading around 2 clubs each. Nothing wrong with that...except the fact that most people either made up a club or simply took it over (even though they weren't in the club to start). I counted around 16 clubs which are pretty much pointless >_>..(ex. SAT-Prep club, Charity Club, Math Club)...Uh...SAT-prep?? That's not a club. That's something you do so you can get into a University =_=; Then there's the sheer amount of charities at our school. Some of them make sense like, Free the Children. They actually do a lot, and their cause makes sense. But some others like Kids Help Phone, and Backpack for Hope (wtf) make literally no sense. We don't have enough money (well I don't anyway) to donate to everything. What's even more annoying is the fact that every month each club will come around selling baked goods...most of the time which are overpriced, and don't taste so good. I know it sounds kind of heartless not to donate, but seriously, I can't give 1.50 for a cupcake for 10 clubs a day. =_=;

There's also the people who lead these clubs....well.."lead". It's really getting to me because they're leading ~3 clubs on average..."leading"...making up a club for CAS hours is ridiculous. Why not just pick one thing that you care about and just make a club for that instead of leading clubs which will probably break apart in two months. >_> I saw these two girls who already have enough clubs to write a great resume for university applications. Yet, they were filling out a club creation form...wtf...I doubt the people at the admissions office are stupid enough to think "OMG, 15 CLUBS, YOU GET IN"...Personally, I'd doubt how committed those people were to actually be in 15 clubs..>_> Maybe it's for scholarships, but I have the same argument for that too. There's probably a limit beyond which no matter how much work you do, there's no benefit. I suppose they could claim "the ability to balance time between school and other stuff" +Sigh+ I'm only leading archery, but I'm satisfied with that..or I was until I found out almost everybody is doing 2352356123451235 things. On that note, I don't know how much longer I can tolerate being around such try-hard "IB kids"..(I hate that term). I actually had to go somewhere else for lunch. Never have I felt such a strong urge to just leave.

It's actually kind of strange, some people who get 90s, are really stupid. I realize this when I have to listen to people asking questions in class. It's usually something so ridiculously obvious (how do you find the uncertainty? .....we did this all year last year you idiot, we got 3 lessons on it now...wtf do you mean "how do you find the uncertainty?" =_=;;;;;;) I would love to throw a textbook at them..but that would most likely kill them >_>;;; There's also this guy in chemistry, outside of class he's so fricken loud, but in class I speak louder than he does, and that's saying something. And chemistry...Benzene is still sick...so is carbon...and its allotropes..=_=...and some functions in graphing calculators...+head2desk+

Turns out we need 20 tutoring hours...I have 1..>_> bleh, I hate tutoring people sososososososo much. If they don't understand what I'm talking about, I will make that person listen to THIS. D< In school news:
Math Quiz - FAILED
Physics Quiz - FAILED
ICS - AAAAAAAAUUUUUUUUUUUGGGGHHHH
Chemistry - I know what's going on : D
English - ...zzzzzzzz, such boring books

KH 385/2 is almost out. The trailers look really nice, I didn't think you could have that kind of gameplay on the DS o_o. But I guess that's Square Enix (I think they made it). What else is there to complain about...hm....I'm having issues focusing, sleeping, waking up, and going to school, etc. On the other hand, tomorrow is the university fair. I guess I'll have to skip chemistry to go, but it'll be good. It'll probably be crowded as hell too..>< Oh well. I should draw more...I wonder if blogging counts as creativity hours...

Today's Day Rating: -5/10 Not even kidding

SJKL:DFSDJKL:FZXCM

2009-09-22T20:41:00.002-04:00

: D My patience has fallen to 2% of what it normally is. The complaint of the moment is: "excessive use of the word "sick""....I don't think "sick" is an adjective that should be used positively...>_>...Especially not in chemistry class.

Teacher: +Just finished explaining something+
Guy beside me: Yo, that's sick
Me: ...wtf it's benzene...=_=;;;;;;

BENZENE??? +RWAR+ Where did language vanish to D: Jeez.."sick"..>_>...

asdfjkl;asdlkfj;aklsdfmathquiz;kljasd;fklajsd

Tired D:

2009-09-11T22:20:00.005-04:00

Nothing happens -_-; If I blagged everyday. It would go something like: "i r tired, i r behind, i r fail, ppl sux" +Sigh+ I'm so tired o_o...I've only had school for 4 days...C.G.-itis is catching!@ D<

Volunteering starts tomorrow, but I'm not sure if I should go...hmmm....it is the first day...but I'll be by myself. Guess I won't go, I should sleep anyway 24-hour nap o: Maybe I'll bike this weekend. It's not cold..not really.

Math test to study for, etc etc etc. Oh, physics project: bottle rocket....I swear ours is going to explode on the launch pad...as hilarious as that will be, a -3% sounds bad x_x... Within Temptation with the Metropole Orchestra is nothing short of fantastic @@ +needs to get the CD/DVD+ Yes I'll obsess over there -> !! Evanescence may release a new album in December ! +gets hopes up way too high+

L>First Seat..+sigh+ : (

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

+Sigh+ And Repeat

2009-09-08T19:54:00.004-04:00

-_- School.....last year I have to drag myself somewhere I probably don't want to be. Wonder what makes me think university will be anymore fun to go to. So...time for summer accomplishments:

Summer Accomplishments:
- ...shut up =_=

Anyway, I drew a picture...-> Hourglass

I'd really like one, I just like watching the sand go back and forth...because I'm THAT easily amused. Then I realize that the sand is actually marking time that I'm wasting. >>

This year I'll hopefully stop wasting so much time. (No, this is not wasting D< I have reasons). Although I've made that promise to myself every year since Gr.9. Gr.12 will hopefully be different...with university hanging over my head. Speaking of which, I'll probably end up at UofT...eh...10th in the world for Engineering/IT is good. Better than Ryerson at any rate (due to someone, I am incredibly biased against this school)

So at school...like 99% of the people who were in IB I actually LIKED dropped out..-_-..Blah. So while I was trying to get my schedule switched, this guy was asking me who the smart people in our math class were...=_____________________+ wtf...seriously D<>_>...What's even more annoying is that the people being used don't get that until the end. Jeez...and in ICS....How did it go from "YES, time for ICS" to "...ugh..; -; +Slitslit+" so fast =_=....There's too many people there D: What's even weirder is, a couple people who failed miserably in Gr.9 and Gr.10...are in this class....WHY??? Everybody else had the sense to leave...>_>..

So 90% of the clubs seem to be lead by IB students in Gr.12....As C.G. so succintly put it "The school is going straight to hell" And I must agree :D All those clubs are put in the hands of the laziest people in the school. Some/most are lazier than I am....The Kids Help Phone club is co-led by a girl, that when asked what the phone number was in Gr.10, she replied with 222-TIPS....Brilliant : D. The web team is led by a girl who watches dramas until 2 am...: D Programming Team...8DD don't go there...and then Yearbook...I doubt we'll have one. In conclusion: BAI BAI SCHOOL

Today's Day Rating: 6.5

School

2009-09-03T19:43:00.001-04:00

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO T_T

i r alive...."alive" used loosely...

2009-07-13T19:30:00.003-04:00

Yayyy summaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar, the laziness as set in..I wanted to blag like..at the start of July...but the procrastination lives on 8D. Bleh I have such a huge list of things I need to do for next year..Gr.12??? WTFHAX TOO FAST +goes back to kindergarten+...I remember kindergarten -_-. Compared to school in India, kindergarten her was a glorified preschool...I know how to count and what months there are in a year kthx..>>

I really want fourth job in Maple, but it takes effing forever (6 hours a level, woohoo T_T..B>Life?)

I got a job..wtf?..me? and I thought I completely blew the interview..oh well : D

Not much to talk about except it's really windy and those garbage workers should get their butts back to work D:< Jeez

1. It's a recession
2. You have a job (guaranteed, yayy unions)
3. I doubt you're paid less than 20 dollars
4. That's huge for what you do

In conclusion, gtfo strike and go work, I want the parks back D: <

..k that's it..

Bleak D:

2009-05-30T19:16:00.001-04:00

Well there's been no blag for the past...week? or so...due to the fact that I am a lazya--. So I suppose this one will be a summary of the past week...(whatever I can remember of it anyway)

I really should stop complaining about how much work I have because everybody else has it too..So Thursday was the French exam...that could have gone..better D8. (Seven plx) French is over for the rest of almost everybody's life. I'm not sure I want to stop, I kind of want to get the bilingual qualification. If I can learn to read my own language that will make me..trilingual? Yayyy. The exam time was just retarded. I woke up at 5:40 to make it there 10 minutes early =_=. Jeez...there was also a tennis match that day. The people who were playing tennis and had french...I think had to be at school at around 5 =_=....wtf is wrong with IB. Oh well..I missed some easy questions. After that I went to Parkway with 6 azn girls 8DDD..okay no it was boring as hell -_-. It was also the "Free Ice Coffee" day at Timmy's...that was a terrible first experience. I'm definitely not going to drink coffee..ever. It's so bitter D: It tasted like fricken milk + water + weak coffee + not enough sugar. Jeez I don't get how people can drink and like it @_@..

I forgot what happened Friday, Saturday, Sunday....Okay no I didn't. Friday was the Physics trip to UofT...OMGWTFHAX SO BORING...mostly. Well the trip over to UofT was uneventful (for us anyway). I went there with R.E and S.A. We just took the subway to College and walked over. We got there before the teacher which was good. What was interesting was what happened to B.H : D (Sorry, but it's too lulz :3 but sadly entirely too complicated to explain). He should really get a cell phone. Saturday and Sunday passed by as usual. Procrastinating + Panicking..: x

So last week there were 2 lockdowns. The first which was on Monday and boring as hell, and the second on...Wednesday where we played cards for 2 hours. Yay cards. I don't know how he does it but my lab partner is hopelessly incompetent. What do you tell someone who thinks they know it all, but is in reality completely clueless? D: Thankfully the gas stoichiometry lab did NOT involve fire and I was put in a different group.

Enough about school. CommunityChannel is my new favourite thing to watch on Youtube. She pulls out all these situations which everybody goes through, but nobody talks about. ._. And she's funny. Stereos...yes...addicting...too..addicting. It's funny how a completely sub-par video can be made okay just by adding some good music. I don't want to edit English. It's going to drive me nuts. D: +Sigh+ Group 4...eff -_- The plants are all going to die in that stupid room =_=. Okay that's enough blagging : | I don't know what to write about anymoar. D: eff my flagging memory. It needs a break....Today, I woke up and went volunteering (late as usual) where I crawled in the dust for around 2 hours sorting, counting, and organizing books with R.E @_@;

Outlook of Surviving until June: Bleak

French...

2009-05-20T19:26:00.002-04:00

...eff...

Faiiiiillll

2009-05-19T20:30:00.010-04:00

Okay so today was the second lab slot for Group 4 (stupid me, why did I book it for today...whywhywhywhywhy ; - ;). So what happened was, I get there at 3:15 like everybody else. Turns out my whole group forgot how to do the calculations....and I still don't really understand what the point of the experiment is -__-;...I guess if I sit down and think about it, the whole thing will become really clear and we'll get an A+ and ladedadeda...NOT...I don't know why we had to design it at the start of the year when we knew next to nothing....then it sat in the science office while I was wondering when the teachers would mark our procedures...apparently they lied =_=;;; Anyway, the end result of that "lab" was us spending almost two hours figuring out what we needed....Note to self, come prepared for the next lab..Jeez..@_@; Oh yes..I started 9 more plants in case they die again. -_-;

Teachers are completely useless in these situations when you feel thoroughly effed. I don't understand why everything was left to now. Seriously, we had all year. Suddenly there's: English video project, Group 4, IB exams, essays, and other crap =_=; I'm drowning in homework and my teachers are throwing me anchors...blah..-_- and don't forget all the field trips...-________-...I've been to school half the days this week =_=;

When will they realize that we are in IB and therefore will procrastinate. Why you ask? Because we justify our procrastination with the fact that we "work harder than the rest" and we deserve a break even though our work isn't much more than those in Academic. Why do we feel we "work hard"? Because we leave most of the work to the last minute and so have to break our brains in order to finish it and hand it in on time. Why do we have to overclock our neurons? Because we left it to the last second because we feel that we're too tired because we worked hard on the previous assignment. If the cycle isn't apparent to anyone reading...GTFO nao D<

Grocery Stores <- That's funny.

Haha, so C.G's camera bricked. She googled for a fix and what she found was something like: "smash camera until fixt".....YES OF COURSE : D. 200 dollar camera? Let's just smash it until it works...If it didn't work.."SMASH HARDARRRR" --......sad thing was that it worked...I have no comment on that...at all.

I was reading this manga about a love letter...my thought?...WHO NEEDS A LETTER WHEN YOU HAVE A DS!! I've grown addicted to Youtube...I should remove it from the...quick links? part of the browser. I keep clicking it -_-. if I removed it...wikipedia would be right next to it...so I might learn something o: I wish QC would start another plot...random installations are boring....Back to French...no comment -__- refer to title for feelings on the subject.

Tyranitarrr

2009-05-18T19:07:00.005-04:00

People and their msn worms. Why can't they just avoid them? I mean, getting a message from someone you haven't talked to in 2 years while they're offline and saying something like "yo, check out these pics from last summer. i found you in them. so jkz. lol"...Isn't that the teensiest bit suspicious? -__-; Okay fine, I'll admit I fell for it once, but it's the same people again and again. If you're gonna infect your msn, at least learn how to get rid of the damn worm. Is it really THAT hard?

Switching trains of thought for fun, I watched Quantum of Solace. I really didn't understand what was going on until the end. It wasn't nearly as good as Casino Royale was, but I have a liking for cards (I don't know why). The way they filmed the chase scenes made me so dizzy it's not funny. How about focusing the camera on one person for 5 seconds? -_-;

So Game Freak's going to release 2 more pokemon games. Fall 2009 release in Japan...that means next year for us. D: Heart Gold and Soul Silver. They're just remakes of Gold and Silver, but they have the following pokemon like in Yellow...woo..this should be interesting. I liked battling 16 gyms. On the topic of pokemon, Tyranitar is awesome. That is all.

French....AUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGH....yeah pretty much..@_@;

Maybe...hm..

2009-05-16T22:15:00.003-04:00

I was so tired yesterday (and I still am). I pretty much wasted the whole day (As usual). I made a to-do list and I don't think I can finish within the year...@_@; (or decade) I never knew to-do lists could become 3 pages long. Jeez.

S.A gave me Adobe CS4 with everything in it. So I decided to install everything. It was split into 9 parts. So first I had to copy them all to my HDD (which took 2 hours), then join them (0.5 hours), then mount and extract it to my HDD (another 1 hour), then finally install it (2 hours). By the time I was done installing, it was 4 am. I decided to try out some of the programs....and just one thought...WHO THE HELL NEEDS ALL THIS STUFF?? L:SDFJK it lags my computer so much, I can't run anything but the program I need. Especially Premiere. It eats my memory....and my HDD, I only have 25 GB left. -_____-; Yes a new computer would be nice.

I've been listening to Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger - Daft Punk all day. It's so...robotic. I got my meta-cognitive back, and actually got an 82. I don't think that's too bad for something written at 4:30 in the morning. This was the same day as the regional archery tournament. (Yes, C.G is really miffed with it :3) I'm getting a bit worried about English as I don't know when we're going to film this. And I'm even more worried about Group 4. Another plant died..so it's down to 6...Jeez..I have to grow some more now.

I've been through the first 10 pages or so of last.fm's symphonic metal bands. Some have good music, some have good vocals, some have good lyrics. But they're usually flawed with "death grunts" (wtf?), or male vocals (ew). +Sigh+ I need new music!! D: Anytime I watch a Nightwish video, there's always around 30 pages of comments arguing on Tarja vs. Anette. Jeez...Tarja's gone...go listen to her solo music if you want. =_=; Of course Anette's not going to be like Tarja. They're different, obviously the style and the sound will change. Tarja's more classical and Anette sounds more like she'd be better in a pop/rock band (in my opinion anyway O_o).

I re-listened to some bands I passed over when I was looking earlier to give them a second chance....I've heard Lacuna Coil around 26897 times and no matter what, they sound terrible. I really don't like the lead's voice. Oh well, maybe I'll find something new.

Earlier I was watching BGT Episode 6. Kelly keeps appearing and vanishing between random auditions...Why..o_o..I don't get it. I think I lost my pencil...and it was my last one...I should really stop being so careless or I could lose something more important. -_-; I need something to do this weekend...B>Life?

+Yawn+ Hm..frenchfrenchfrench...vocab..verb tenses..sentence structure...formats of the written parts...Okay..I'll practice an exam a day until the day. That's 5 exams (or 6). Oh..I feel like drawing something...maybe a bird.

Annd Action

2009-05-14T20:30:00.006-04:00

Today, I single-handedly: failed another math quiz, failed a chemistry design lab, pissed off my chemistry project partner and felt blah all day. I wonder if I'm safe enough to visit UofT for Physics, I'm bound to smash something. I did well on TOK, especially seeing that I suck at it.

I have no class next week..or..part of the next week either o_o..
Monday - Holiday
Tuesday - Geography Exam (No school)
Wednesday - Geography Exam (No school)
Thursday - French Exam (7 am T__________T; who wants to go to school at 6:30????)
Friday - Physics Field Trip (UofT)
Next Monday - Chemistry Field Trip (Should I go?)
Next Tuesday - French Field Trip (Should I go?)

Yayy...silver at OFSAA...bleh...one of the best male standards in Ontario...not bad I guess. (Just that nobody cares about Silver) I liked the fact that at the end of each end, they'd play music. Britney got stuck in my head...which wasn't necessarily a BAD thing (it helped me calm down). I realized the better I do, the more elated I become..so if I'm doing really well, I act pretty retarded. Archery's over for this year (well the competitions anyway).

The plants for Group 4 are coming along. Although I think they're stil going too slowly. Three of them are around 3 inches long, so I moved them into a seperate container. The other 5 are growing a bit more slowly so I put them together. Sadly, I lost 2 of them. R.I.P. One died before it could sprout and the other died because it sprouted but didn't grow at all. I think it's root fell off when it was growing. Grow faster plants or else we're screwed.

J.L got me the Rotom key, but he forgot my R4, so I have to wait to capture it. Hopefully tomorrow. I really don't want to capture the legendaries (I don't know why, I just feel like I'm annoying them by marching into their cave and throwing capture devices at them). I'd rather just leave them alone.

Yesterday I was watching this show made by National Geographic called Aftermath. It was really interesting to see how the Earth would react if humans suddenly vanished. It really showed how much of an effect we have on the planet. Apparently, if we vanished, the Earth would recover from all the pollution and everything in less than 200 years. No manmade structure would survive more than a thousand years. Houses would only last around 40 years or so, and even the Eiffel Tower would collapse after a few hundred years. 10 000 years to make a mark on the planet. All of it undone in less than 500. For some reason I really like watching those kinds of shows. Not really documentaries, but more like "what if this happened" shows.

And on the usual random change of topic: French Exam Study Time O:
To do:
- get a 7
How:
- uh..
Most Likely Result Now:
- 3? : [

I should review my vocab and grammar though. I realize I have so much backed up homework it's not even funny. If I don't use next week to finish everything, I will most likely jump off the balcony. So much homework for chemistry -_-. I still haven't found a job...maybe I'll apply to the Ex. But now, the time for an English script is upon me! To Notepad!!

Lvl64isimpossibleD:

2009-05-12T17:12:00.004-04:00

Tomorrow's OFSAA, and the last archery tournament. I have little hope for an individual medal, but there's hope for a team medal. In other news, Economics is done forever. Never again....although...in retrospect, it seems like it's going to be easier than HL Chem. Damn. I don't think I can replace my Chem mark with my ICS mark. But I think the only reason why I'm getting such a low mark is because of where I sit.

I dislike my haircut, it makes me look so...so..juvenile?..I guess that's the word. The plants are growing entirely too slowly, and I can't think of a decent lab to go along with it. The lab which was submitted four months ago makes no sense now. +Sigh+ And our lab time is booked for tomorrow, maybe they can switch?

Apparently, one cannot speak to a girl, without being suspected of flirting? >_>; Jeez...it's just a "hi" in the hallway...

I think I came up with a system for guessing what my mark will be. It depends on how I feel after the exam. It's something like:

: DDDD = 7
: ] = 6
: | = 5
D: = 4
DD: = 3
DDD8 = 2
DDDDX = 1
DDDDDDDD8 = -3i

I think I came out of econ with..DDD8...damn..; - ;...No..think happy thoughts (..ah yes.."happy"...I remember that) As much as I hate getting addicted to songs, it's usually because of one or two lines that I like it. They're just so meaningful that the whole song becomes good. Then after listening more, I find more meaning in the whole song. On the topic of music. Visions of Atlantis makes songs which are entirely too...strange. The lyrics are dark(ish), but the music is so...happy(ish)? It doesn't work. And the male singer (ew) changes his voice so it sounds ridiculous in every other song. Especially with his Austrian accent.

C.G. ran out of rice....I am going to revoke her azn license D< YES, PRESENT YOURSELF FOR YOUR TRIAL NEXT MONDAY. Aznfailure +insert heartslash here+

I should probably get my TOK mark. Lately I've found take out food extremely unappetizing. It seems very tasteless. I prefer homemade food nowdays. I'm still upset from the alarm clock incident earlier in the morning.

Alarm Clock Incident
I knocked my alarm clock off the desk, so it must have set itself strangely. For some reason, the time said 7:15 which was when I wanted to wake up, so the alarm went off. I got up, turned it off and noticed it was strangely dark. I thought I could just put it on snooze, and I went back to bed. I woke up after 5 minutes, and it was still dark. So I thought I should wake up and finish reviewing for economics, and then get to school. Thankfully, my brain was awake enough so that I had the sense to double check the time. I turned on my DS, and tadaa, the time was 3:fricken:50....That whole alarm incident wasted around 40 minutes of my sleep. Good thing I checked, or I would have been at school at around 4:20 in the morning wondering why it was so dark. (Yes, I'm slow...moving on) I promise to be more careful with my clock.

Yay, that's it for story time. I think I'll draw something while I wait for an idea to hopefully smack me on the head.

ADD? whut?

2009-05-11T23:54:00.004-04:00

I said I'd do this blag everyday, but I keep forgetting...oh well, yesterday was boring anyway, just a lot of ADD and "studying" for economics. Speaking of which, paper 1 fail D: Enough of that, I am really pissed off with myself for not having the common sense to start group four earlier. WE'RE SUPPOSED TO GROW PLANTS? AND WE START NOW? EFF? Hoboy, so I think mung beans would be a better choice, they've sprouted already and lettuce would take entirely too long.

And in other subjects, in all honesty, now that I have a group for English, I'm sort of looking forward to doing the movie. As gay...or..straight..or..whatever it will be. I should start the script, but as usual I have no idea what my part is, besides the fact that I'll be doing all the editing....yay -_-

I got a haircut, finally. I hate how they take your glasses off. "Um..I can't see how you're hacking away at my hair..." +Ten minutes later+ "..oh..I didn't want that cut...." Blah. Oh well. I wish she'd cut off more at the top. And random fact: I'm Yours - Jason Mraz was playing at the barbershop and I was humming along to it so now it's stuck in my head. Damn. Catchy song though.

I drew another picture. It's a droopy flower. Yayy, but these actually take a while to draw.

Flower -> http://icephoenix98.deviantart.com/art/Flower-122217099

I realize it's flat, I know what I should do to make it seem more 3D, so I will draw one tomorrow. Flowers are actually harder than it seems to draw. I suppose I should keep them and show them for my CAS hours. One a day, I can claim 1 - 2 hours, and my art skills improve. Awesome. I'll draw a more 3D one tomorrow. Speaking of CAS hours, I'm 2/3 done, awesome. I hate how this girl is starting up a "running club" just to get CAS hours -____-. So -____-. Jeez, go volunteer and help someone, stop abusing school policies. But I sort of want to join, just because I would run but I can't find anyone to run with.

I should really finish up economics and get to sleep. The exam's at 9:00. @_@. And, many appreciations to C.G. for finding this link -> Economics Notes. It's got tons of notes, and very well explained too. I'm feeling a bit nervous about taking HL Chem....I swear it's going to make me cry. ; - ; Oh well. I love C.G's group for Group 4. "Buy the materials after the exam for the lab tomorrow which is also after the exam." Tough. x]. I just looked at the HL Chem exam....it is so 8DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD it's going to short my 8D out.....Eff...

Why do I fail at Brawl now?? I can barely hit Zelda's lightning kick....I should go back to Melee and retrain that kicking reflex...(mainly because it's the only attack that works). Yes..I will do that. Brawl conditioned me to use Din's Fire, and her Up and Side Smashes too much. I also Nayru's love for no reason...although Farore's Wind-ing around everywhere is fun, especially when you dodge someone's final smash. That's hilarious, and it ticks your opponent off so much :3. I'd use Peach, but she's so nerfed..Ah well...it comes it goes.

Britain's Got Talent is going downhill...so many strippers in the last episode, but Amanda's reaction to the Captain was hilarious. Ahahaha...Economics Paper 2 tomorrow...FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF- That covers it. Time to go on Youtube.

Tazers Maybe

2009-05-09T11:57:00.001-04:00

Why do I ADD so much?? It's not even funny anymore, I should see a doctor. D: After 10 minutes of reading, my mind wanders. I still don't understand market failure, and the exam is in less than a day. Tazers might help. Shock when your mind wanders. I ended up drawing a picture of a guy looking up, and after much criticism from someone, I decided to post it on dA. Now I'm regretting it, but I'm also looking forward to any comments.

http://icephoenix98.deviantart.com/art/Looking-Up-122024594 <- There if anyone wants to see it. Maybe I'll get better. Short blag..+zap+ +Gets back to work+

Painful Indecisiveness

2009-05-08T20:41:00.005-04:00

Well today's tournament could have gone better. Bronze for individual (381 ;-;) and gold for team (but the other one sucked). Second (401) and first (42x). I could have gotten it...but NOOOO, I had to have a crappy morning round. Sucks for me. Oh well. One more, OFSAA (I think I spelled it right.) Time to give it my all. Wow..medals really pile up ._. I need another nail to hang them on.

Two more days until the economics exam. I think I should just focus on micro (I wonder if that includes market failure....I don't get it ; - ; ) and then review macro and development just in case. I've been reading all the notes, but I guess I could do some quizzes and stuff. Hopefully I get a 6, I'm not really expecting a 7, but that would be nice. Speaking of IB exams, apparently this year's Math HL P1 was incredibly hard. But Ms.B (as usual) disagrees. I'm a bit scared really ._. ...Okay no, I'm really scared.

Apparently I could be a really good ninja because I come out of nowhere. I think people are getting used to it, but it's still fun to freak out random people who don't really know me. Oh..right. I nearly killed someone at the tournament. D: I felt so bad I couldn't shoot for a round ;_; . She was half crying. I hope I didn't psychologically damage her.

I'm not entirely sure how to do all the things we need for English because I seem to be the one who has to create all the special effects and stuff. I really don't want to film at IKEA. It's so boring D: and we'll get random stares. I think I have to use my mom's camcorder, but I don't know how to use it well...blah..I should learn to use Premiere. Group 4 is going rather badly, I think I'll just germinate the seeds in regular water, and some plastic cup I find tomorrow. I'm not entirely sure where I can find distilled water...maybe at the drug store. I'll ask tomorrow.

Haha, so me and C.G. (and just for you: C.G. and I) are working on chem together. Maybe if we take 3 truckloads of Adderall (each), we'll finish sometime by the end of this decade (providing it doesn't wear off). The sky is purple outside. I should get a haircut before I get sick, it's getting annoying and I'm kind of looking forward to short hair. I resolve to get one this weekend!!

Haha -> http://gardeningmama.com/ <- Mama moves out of the kitchen. I wonder if she'll smash you with a spade or something if you do it wrong.

Compared to the last 5-day XKCD (The Secretary of the Internet), this one failed. The String Quartet is really nice, and there's this other group (forgot the name) and they've covered so many songs I really like. They make it sound good too. I wish I could find a new format that I like for this blag...but..I'm so indecisive it hurts.

blag.length(); = reallyLong

2009-05-07T08:31:00.003-04:00

Woooo, I'm feeling better (ish) than I was at the time of the last post. TOK IS OVER FOREVER! And I did pretty well on the presentation too. I think the best way for me to not get nervous, is to just talk looking at the teacher and ignoring everybody else. (It also helped there was no communication category, heehee :3). Now the next thing, economics exams on Monday and Tuesday, 3 days to study, I don't get market failure. I will study that as soon as I finish this blag. Next big project: Group 4. I think if I start planting this weekend, they'll be ready for the acid treatment in a week, or two. I should look up how to plant them hydroponically, but I need plastic cups. I'll get them tomorrow after the archery tournament.

Speaking of archery, I got second at the invitational. It was so effing annoying to see all these little kids. One of them shot an arrow, moved two steps to the right, shot again, and moved backwards half a step. I don't understand how that would possibly help but whatever. Mr.S says that he's a good basic skills coach, and I agree. After watching some of these people, they can't even draw back properly, although around 3/4 of them were just skipping class. One kid came up to me and S.A just to tell us that our bows were crap. He then proceeded to score 90. How nice. There were these other kids who were also shocked that we could score so "high". They were applauding each other on getting 45....out of 300...Anyway, I managed to get 417 (personal best). I think gold at city (which is tomorrow) is like 440. I missed Wednesday's practice because I slept till 1:00 and then I didn't want to move all the way to school. Tough luck. Still, 357 to 417. It's...something. I got silver. Bleh. I hope I do well tomorrow.

I've been failing math recently, time to get back to working. This stuff isn't that hard, and I can't do that badly. Practix maeks perfectz I guess. Oh, I got a good group for the English culminating. We already have a good idea and it seems like it will really work. I should give C.G. a DVD so I can get Photoshop and Adobe Premier, but I keep forgetting. I'd download it myself but it's so fat, and I can't find a crack for it anyway. It's an original plot (stolen from B.H...but modified..yay). Let's hope I don't get camera shy. Random thought: that school that the invitational was at....had a skating rink....and a huge courtyard...and...a football field with a track which actually had that track-y material...and around 275935 trophies, medals and pendants....then we got back to V.P....; _ ; (there was also sinks that worked, and soap in the dispensers)

I think I'll get back on that "stay as fit as possible during the school year". Starting..today is fine. I was looking around facebook, and I have posted NONE of the pictures or videos which are on there. Kinda weird. I've been meaning to get back to learning Swing, but it's so taxing ; _ ; I was looking at limits the other day. It makes sense, but also at the same time, makes no sense. As x approaches a, y approaches it's value..or..something..it's talking about every situation, except where x = a....x -> a, but not x = a. (I think, I only read up to there). On second thought, forget about those, focus on what's going on now.

I wonder if annoying people realize they're really annoying, and they just annoy us more just because they're really sadistic. Apparently, C.G. has good observational skills. Just not bookshelves. Bookshelves are beyond the reach of her abilities. 8D I want to finish FF IV, but the final dungeon is so hard. I was over-leveled for every bit of the game, except this part. I don't want to grind, because the monsters in the dungeon are all equal to previous boss fights. It actually takes several hits, each dealing 9 999, which is quite scary.

I hope that something happens between that guy and Hannelore. It would prove to be very interesting. Veeeeeeeeery interesting. XKCD should do more daily comics, although I've missed 3/4 of the references in this week's. Sadly. Daily blags are much shorter, I should do those instead.

break

...Tourniquet

2009-05-05T18:56:00.004-04:00

Tourniquet

I tried to kill the pain
But only brought more
(So much more)
I lay dying and I'm pouring
Crimson regret and betrayal

I'm dying (dying)
Praying (praying)
Bleeding (bleeding)
And screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation

Do you, remember me?
Lost for so long
Will you be on the other side?
Or will you forget me?

I'm dying (dying)
Praying (praying)
Bleeding (bleeding)
And screaming
Am I too lost to be saved?
Am I too lost?

My God my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation

(Return to me salvation)

I want to die.

My God my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet,
Return to me salvation

My wounds cry for the grave
My soul cries for deliverance
Will I be denied?
Christ
Tourniquet
My suicide

(Return to me salvation)

...yeah..+Sigh+

8 Lab Slots? Too Little, MOAR PLAX

2009-05-04T19:55:00.006-04:00

Another archery contest tomorrow. Woooo...Catholic School. We had Group 4 sign ups (95% of us haven't started, big surprise there.) We still have to um...do it..at least we have a plan..ish..(I measured concentration in mL.) Mr.P didn't stop laughing when I told him that. The lab time sign up sheet was posted. This one group took 10 slots, and this other took 8. Honestly, what are you going to be doing that requires 10 hours of lab time or teacher assistance?? You can't really be that retarded. Or so I hope anyway.

In chemistry, we had another lab (T____________T...I hate my partner so much.) Today, we were doing this titration lab. The buret was full of sodium hydroxide, and it was on the higher end of the allowed concentration range too. This guy, instead of pouring the base out from the top, he decides to take out the valve. What. A. Genius. The friggen buret was full too, so his hands were drenched in it. Good thing it wasn't the acid, we were using sulfuric acid. If it was the acid, I'd probably be sitting in the emergency room trying to explain why he's such an idiot.

The economics exam is in 6 days, I am so dead. And as usual I failed a math test (Again? Why yes, I am quite the idiot.) Forget learning how to add, I'll have to ask Ms.B how to count ; _ ;. 1...2...4..whut..+Sigh+ I hate myself for this but I keep listening to Holly Valance singing Kiss Kiss. It's so trashy, but so catchy.

I've been thinking about battling online again, but I need to think of a team, breed it, raise it, EV train it, and that'll take around 3 months. Good thing though, I can just use pokesav. :] Such a convenient tool, but I won't give everything 31 in IVs, that's too boring. I logged onto MS for the first time since SydneyMS shut down. There's a family system. What..family?...How about your real family..you know..the more or less human one? Well I read MS was originally supposed to be a socializing game, that's why it takes so long to level up. But once the damage hoars get a hold of it, there goes that game.

I kinda like spring. It's such a flowery season. There's so many different colours on the trees. Some are green, some are yellow, and there's some which have flowers. They're really nice to look at. The sky looks nice too. I've never really noticed that. As the sun sets, the blue of the sky sort of fades from a bright blue with clouds into pink into an orange....I should look out the window more often.

Happy Birthday HSL :D

Emulator

2009-05-03T19:50:00.003-04:00

I got a PS1 emulator. Finally. I can finish all those PS1 games I couldn't finish all those years ago. The only thing is, when I'm replaying them, they're so easy. It's quite sad really. I remember being scared of some of these levels and forcing someone else to beat them. Now I run through them like they're nothing. Oh well, I suppose finishing it is the important part. What I need now is a gamepad. The cheapest is for around 25 dollars, which I as usual don't have. I'm thinking of beating the Spyro trilogy. I don't consider anything after the Year of the Dragon to be part of Spyro as it is quite an insult. The iso is 300 MB though. Oh well, bandwidth worries can wait. I actually came really close to beating Year of the Dragon, but the disc broke. I can also try FFVII. 4 discs, and apparently 40 hours of gameplay. That'll take forever to beat, but it's supposed to be classic.

I used to watch this guy on Youtube because he was so incredibly naive that it was entertaining. However, he decided to leave because he couldn't handle trolls anymore. I love how the trolls are the ones with like 3 subscribers, and 1 video. Oh well, I'm surprised he kept making so many. I can think of several others who should just leave. There was this one other kid who was around 10 judging by the video who wanted to educate the internet on Christianity. No better fuel than religion preached by a squeaky voiced kid for a flame war. He actually ended up making a video asking the people to either apologize or threatening that he would leave Youtube. That's hilarious. Asking trolls to apologize.

Apparently lots of people have worse memories than C.G. ...well aren't we effed. Yes, you should really upgrade. (EVERYTHING.) First IB exam is in 7 days, and I really should get to studying but it's so boring. I'm still undecided on the TOK trip vs. Archery competition issue. I'm getting more and more lethargic about doing homework. It's been so long since I haven't worried about something being due. Even worse, we're getting math homework over the summer. Again. I don't think I'll take Virtual School bio this year, it seems hard and it doesn't seem to be available. Maybe accounting. These blags are getting longer and longer. And this is long enough.

Daily Blag

2009-05-02T11:40:00.002-04:00

Yesterday was the archery contest. Shooting with 1 hour of "sleep" is not a good idea. In 1 round, I was standing in the wrong spot -_-. Then after lunch, my sight moved and I only noticed after 3 rounds of misses. Eff. Yeah so I think I could have gotten second, but tough. +Sigh+ Third is..something...nothing great, but still...something. I need to work on adjusting my sight in a limited number of rounds, as well as releasing in a consistent manner. I keep spazzing on on random shots. Haha, we still swept the competition though. First, second, and third in both male and female standard. (But our school was the only one shooting female standard, and in my most humble opinion, the rest of them sucked so bad it wasn't even funny.) Oh well, the next contest's on Tuesday. There's another on Friday and I think I might be able to get a medal or something, but it's on the same day as the TOK trip to Kensington Market. Medal or movie + food, decisions decisions.

On the topic of TOK, I hate this presentation thing. I don't know what to talk about. I wish I could just skip it, but I'd fail even harder than I am right now. IB exams are almost here, and I've actually started studying. Unpossible, inorite. No doubt I'll forget any and everything I learn. Level 2 anyone? I'm still upset with french, I hope I do well on the exam though. I gotta review grammar and especially when to use tenses. I keep using the basic tenses for next to everything. And on top of that, how do you make a resumé. I need a job.

I watched some of Britain's Got Talent. One thought: why does Britain have all the talent??? Although, a stripper, and a drag act got through. I'm not entirely sure what the royal family's going to think, but I'm 128% sure it's going to be lulz. Mama Trish. That was oddly hypnotic, but still kinda disturbing. The song's catchy though.

Link -> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OgdL4ysfD1o&feature=fvst

There was also this person called...Fabia Cerra. Some striptease..good thing for the British Flag..

I've also realized that I attract emo, needy girls like a dog has fleas -_-. It's always trying to cheer someone up. On top of everything, I wish people would stop telling me that I never smile. "You only smile when she's around"...oh give me a break. I think people enjoy making me feel uncomfortable. My arm hurts too much to type anymore. As usual, no works have been done and it's almost Sunday. +Ends blag+

11:59

2009-04-30T23:00:00.004-04:00

So tomorrow's the archery tournament and I'm a nervous wreck, partially because I have to finish TOK essay (so retarded), and my English meta-cognitive (..whut..). If I sleep too late I'll end up being terrible, and I'm already kinda nervous but excited. I got my "uniform" today (it's just a shirt, not that well designed either, but it has my name on it). I think it would have been better with some different colours instead of blue and white. Black and red anyone?

I think I've realized that it's time to be selective about what work, and classes I go to. More work than classes anyway, because it's simply not possible for most people to finish all that and still be conscious in class the next day. I really think school would be better if it started later, I don't think I'd mind having it end at 6 pm.

Wow it's almost tomorrow, which would make today yesterday meaning..something, I'm not really sure. I wish Within Temptation would make another album sooner. I don't want to wait another year, it's killing me. TOK time.

+Insert date here+

2009-04-29T22:39:00.005-04:00

Wow, after 6 false fire alarms, there wasn't one today. Although I'm pretty sure the principal would have started going class to class with an AK-47 until she found the one who did it. At any rate, it's only a few more weeks until IB exams, and I'm having nightmares about failing them. It's just economics and french, but I've slept through every econ class (more or less), and i fail @ french this year.

The archery tournament is on Friday, and I am so nervous, I doubt I'll even hit the target. I can imagine the scorekeeper "Whose arrows are these, there's like 5 on the wall around the target." I hope I win at least one thing, it's a sport I'm actually okay at. I've been listening to so much (as my friend would call it "corporate-trash". I'm also pretty sure listening to Britney lowers my IQ, a LOT.

I kinda want a new computer, this one's so old and it's not even "new". I got it at TechDirect, but it was cheap actually. I have also been refused the funds to upgrade, but I guess I should wait until I graduate (if I do anyway), to get a laptop for university. Hm..there's this weird process that keeps running and it vanishes before I can check what it is. I should probably run a virus scan but that takes too long. It's also really funny how one person who notices something on Facebook can get so irritating, but I guess it's my fault. It's hidden now, so I guess it doesn't matter anymore. Time to do more works. Oh it's 11 already, I should really get a clock.. or a clock app that blocks everything except the app so I don't ADD. Okaysrsly, work time.

+Insert panic here+

2009-04-28T19:52:00.005-04:00

After having an internal war with myself to not make this blag a daily rant about homework, or whine about life (I get that anyway like it or not, in fact, it's more reliable than the sun rising). I really should be working, but who caaaaaaaares ....yeah I do T_T. I really need help for my ADD and OCD. On the other hand, listening to one song for hours on end ingrains it into my memory so hard it hurts. But it's catchy. i r hoar 4 catchy musix. Oh well, time to work.

Happy Birthday Kathy. Go get yourself a panda or 3.

FIRST POST

2009-04-27T23:51:00.003-04:00

Yayy, first post...now what. I'm not really in the mood to talk about anything because it's so late. It took so long to do that math portfolio, but it's over (Yeah I know I failed, D:) Oh well, time to study physics. I really need to become like this girl I know at school. She's so on top of everything. +Sigh+ Oh well, that's a new goal.